Dear Daddy,
Well, Mamaw Feroben just joined the big family reunion. I know she was so happy to see all of you. Dana said that she probably had you playing the piano for her first thing. Aunt Patsy told us the news Tuesday. We weren’t able to go, but I think we all pretty much said our goodbyes the last time we saw her. She looked so frail then, but she still had that great sense of humor. With her Alzheimer’s as bad as it was, she really didn’t know anybody. She was so pleasant though and she had her little baby doll that she clung to. I asked her if she wanted to trade for Thomas and she just smiled at me and said “I don’t think so!” Then just laughed. She was such a sweet lady and we will miss her a bunch.
It’s funny how certain things can bring back a flood of memories. Every time I see a big beautiful hydrangea bush I think of Mamaw and Papaw’s house (Your Mom and Dad’s house). Remembering all the fun times we had during the summer. I’m glad that you and mom allowed us to go visit them and Granny & Grandpa every summer. I cherish all the times we spent with all of them. I loved hearing Mamaw tell us all the stories of you growing up. She told us about the time you skipped school and she said “Franky was always so worried about what we would think that his conscious would get the best of him before we could and he would tell us everything before we even asked.” I remember her telling me that on that one occasion she was so disappointed in you and you knew it, that you went to her and asked if the two of you could pray together. Even as a kid you were full of faith. Now, you weren’t so full of faith when you and your friends decided to throw cherry bombs in the toilet at school! HA!!!
Well, Father’s Day is tomorrow. This holiday is worse than any other one. It is the one day set aside to honor you, but you aren’t here. I envy the ones that still have their daddy’s! I was wishing today that I could just have one of your hugs. I guess the thing I have struggled with the most is that life moves on for everyone else. I’m sure everyone who has lost someone special to them has struggled with this. Life goes on, but I don’t want anyone to forget how special you were. I just beam when someone mentions your name, or something they miss about you. Because that means they haven’t forgotten about you. Silly, huh? You were just so incredibly special to me and always will be. No one will ever take your place, but I am glad to have Tommy here to help fill the void a little. If you don’t mind, I am going to give mom some money towards a Father’s Day present.
Dana talked to me most of the way to mom’s house last night. We were talking about Mamaw Feroben and all of our family that have passed on. Then we both started thinking about when Mama Forbes died. It wasn’t long after Mamaw and Papaw died. You were so upset. Dana and I sat in the back of the church and I will never forget seeing you at her coffin. You were laid over her and just shaking and sobbing. I had never seen you like that before. I was so upset because my Daddy was hurting and I didn’t know how to fix it. Dana felt the same way. Of course, then we admitted to each other that we both cried anytime we saw you or Mom crying, whether it be at home or at church. We just love you both and never wanted to see you hurting.
Well, Mamaw Feroben just joined the big family reunion. I know she was so happy to see all of you. Dana said that she probably had you playing the piano for her first thing. Aunt Patsy told us the news Tuesday. We weren’t able to go, but I think we all pretty much said our goodbyes the last time we saw her. She looked so frail then, but she still had that great sense of humor. With her Alzheimer’s as bad as it was, she really didn’t know anybody. She was so pleasant though and she had her little baby doll that she clung to. I asked her if she wanted to trade for Thomas and she just smiled at me and said “I don’t think so!” Then just laughed. She was such a sweet lady and we will miss her a bunch.
It’s funny how certain things can bring back a flood of memories. Every time I see a big beautiful hydrangea bush I think of Mamaw and Papaw’s house (Your Mom and Dad’s house). Remembering all the fun times we had during the summer. I’m glad that you and mom allowed us to go visit them and Granny & Grandpa every summer. I cherish all the times we spent with all of them. I loved hearing Mamaw tell us all the stories of you growing up. She told us about the time you skipped school and she said “Franky was always so worried about what we would think that his conscious would get the best of him before we could and he would tell us everything before we even asked.” I remember her telling me that on that one occasion she was so disappointed in you and you knew it, that you went to her and asked if the two of you could pray together. Even as a kid you were full of faith. Now, you weren’t so full of faith when you and your friends decided to throw cherry bombs in the toilet at school! HA!!!
Well, Father’s Day is tomorrow. This holiday is worse than any other one. It is the one day set aside to honor you, but you aren’t here. I envy the ones that still have their daddy’s! I was wishing today that I could just have one of your hugs. I guess the thing I have struggled with the most is that life moves on for everyone else. I’m sure everyone who has lost someone special to them has struggled with this. Life goes on, but I don’t want anyone to forget how special you were. I just beam when someone mentions your name, or something they miss about you. Because that means they haven’t forgotten about you. Silly, huh? You were just so incredibly special to me and always will be. No one will ever take your place, but I am glad to have Tommy here to help fill the void a little. If you don’t mind, I am going to give mom some money towards a Father’s Day present.
Dana talked to me most of the way to mom’s house last night. We were talking about Mamaw Feroben and all of our family that have passed on. Then we both started thinking about when Mama Forbes died. It wasn’t long after Mamaw and Papaw died. You were so upset. Dana and I sat in the back of the church and I will never forget seeing you at her coffin. You were laid over her and just shaking and sobbing. I had never seen you like that before. I was so upset because my Daddy was hurting and I didn’t know how to fix it. Dana felt the same way. Of course, then we admitted to each other that we both cried anytime we saw you or Mom crying, whether it be at home or at church. We just love you both and never wanted to see you hurting.
Happy Father's Day to the most wonderful Father in the world. You will always be #1 in my book.
Okay so some stories about the boys:
Thomas loves to ride Grandaddy's mower. He calls it the motor. Last week he brought it to the house and Thomas and I mowed the grass. Well, needless to say I am glad that wasn't caught on camera. I'm sure the neighbors got quite a laugh. I didn't know that there was a bar above me in the back and well it got caught twice on a tree and a cable, at which point the front tires came completely off the ground. Threw it in reverse quickly and Thomas looked back at me both times and said "That was close Mommy!" Then I thought it might be nice of me to put it back on the trailer before Jamie got back. Did you know trailers need to be hooked to a vehicle before you load a mower on it. Well, now I do. Tipped the front end up and then sped up on it and slammed the thing down. Stupid huh?
James is going through a pretty rotten phase. He has become a brat! Jamie and I are trying our best to get him out of this phase pretty quick. I cannot stand the whining and the sassiness. Hopefully it won't last much longer. Just a lot of time outs and spankings.
I love you forever!
Jan - Baby girl
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