Dear Daddy,
Yesterday my baby officially turned 4. Boy was I sad. I’m not ready for him to be big. The State Police helicopter came out and of course he thought it was because it was his birthday. They both enjoyed seeing it and getting inside of it. We had Safety Day today and had Fire, Police, Ambulance, etc. here. The boys really enjoyed it. The Police officer with the K9 was here as well. James came up to me outside and said “Mommy, I gotta tell you something. Maybe Jordie and Gino (the K9) can be friends and he can come over and play.” Funny how their little minds work.
I have lost 3 pounds. I started doing Pilates in the morning and in the evening. Also started cutting back on how much junk I eat. You always told me this day was coming when I would have to watch what I was eating. I have to say though, I feel much better now that I have been working out. It really does give me more energy.
I had a long talk with a good friend of mine last night. I have really been struggling lately. I wish that I could learn to be content. I wish that it didn’t bother me to not have a lot of material things. You were so good at that. You were content to stay in the same house until you were old and gray. You bought some extravagant things but you didn’t believe in credit cards, so if it meant you had to wait a while you did. I just wish I could be like that. I guess it’s just really hard now. We went from having the nice $300,000 house and the material things we wanted to being back where we started when we first married. It’s hard to go back. Don’t get me wrong, I am very happy with our home. The boys are so destructive that I don’t really want to get a new home until they are much older. But, Jamie’s car died and we just can’t make a car payment right now. So, he is driving a school van and relying on me when there isn’t a van available. I know that if we ever want to get something new I will definitely have to go back to work. I just miss the days of being home with the boys and watching their every growing moment. Jamie is happy being at the school and really feels like this is his purpose in life. I can’t ask him to change that because I am greedy. He is providing for us, he is working extra to pay for life insurance and he is doing a great job with the bills. So, instead I am going to go back to work at the hospital 2 days a week; which will enable me to get insurance. Once I start working we should be able to get a reliable vehicle. I know, some of this is just immaturity on my part. I just wish I could get past the whole “keeping up with the Jones’s”.
Well, enough of that. Mother’s Day is coming up this weekend. Dana and I want to do something with Mom and really make her feel special. I received a beautiful flower arrangement from Mom today for Mother’s Day. She is always so good at those things. She never misses a birthday, anniversary, special day, you name it she’s got a card for it. Makes you feel loved.
I love you Daddy. I know I say it every time, but I miss you so much!
Love,
Jan – Your Baby Girl Forever
I have lost 3 pounds. I started doing Pilates in the morning and in the evening. Also started cutting back on how much junk I eat. You always told me this day was coming when I would have to watch what I was eating. I have to say though, I feel much better now that I have been working out. It really does give me more energy.
I had a long talk with a good friend of mine last night. I have really been struggling lately. I wish that I could learn to be content. I wish that it didn’t bother me to not have a lot of material things. You were so good at that. You were content to stay in the same house until you were old and gray. You bought some extravagant things but you didn’t believe in credit cards, so if it meant you had to wait a while you did. I just wish I could be like that. I guess it’s just really hard now. We went from having the nice $300,000 house and the material things we wanted to being back where we started when we first married. It’s hard to go back. Don’t get me wrong, I am very happy with our home. The boys are so destructive that I don’t really want to get a new home until they are much older. But, Jamie’s car died and we just can’t make a car payment right now. So, he is driving a school van and relying on me when there isn’t a van available. I know that if we ever want to get something new I will definitely have to go back to work. I just miss the days of being home with the boys and watching their every growing moment. Jamie is happy being at the school and really feels like this is his purpose in life. I can’t ask him to change that because I am greedy. He is providing for us, he is working extra to pay for life insurance and he is doing a great job with the bills. So, instead I am going to go back to work at the hospital 2 days a week; which will enable me to get insurance. Once I start working we should be able to get a reliable vehicle. I know, some of this is just immaturity on my part. I just wish I could get past the whole “keeping up with the Jones’s”.
Well, enough of that. Mother’s Day is coming up this weekend. Dana and I want to do something with Mom and really make her feel special. I received a beautiful flower arrangement from Mom today for Mother’s Day. She is always so good at those things. She never misses a birthday, anniversary, special day, you name it she’s got a card for it. Makes you feel loved.
I love you Daddy. I know I say it every time, but I miss you so much!
Love,
Jan – Your Baby Girl Forever
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